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27 February 2006 @ 12:22 pm
I joined ADF in November of last year. I have not gotten very far into the dedicant program, but was given a mentor. Granted I have not posted much here since I have not gotten very far, but I also did not hear from my mentor aside from the initial email. She has since resigned. I am on several lists and even though some good threads appear here and there, it seems there is more bickering then anything else.

I know I have not had the time to dedicate myself to the dedicant program, however could it be my disconnect with ADF in general. I am wondering if I do belong with ADF. I am not the most scholarly of people, even though I am well educated. I do feel a strong pull towards the Celts and the rigidity of CR kept me from that avenue.

I will remain a member and perhaps the next time the local proto-grove has an event I will make an effort to attend. I need to figure out if it is my schedule or lack of connection to ADF that is effecting me. Perhaps this is not the best suited to me, however I believe I need to actually connect to a few members before I can decide if it is a fit or not.
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17 January 2006 @ 01:40 pm

I joined ADF and began the dedicant program in November during a very intense period of time for me which left me little time for anything other then my current projects. I started the dedicant program anyway since I am a stubborn Aries who does not always realize my own limitations. I changed my altar and purchased the books I chose from the reading lists. Well, now that my schedule is opening and more time is available I still feel I need a general framework before I can move on. So, I began reading The Solitary Druid. I have not gotten far into the book, but I have enjoyed what I have read thus far. My hope is this will give me the larger framework I need and also motivate me.


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29 December 2005 @ 03:41 pm
On December 21st sometime after 10:00 PM my solitary Yule ritual began. I stepped into a dark room and proceeded to the altar. I lit the first candle calling on my guides and nature spirits. I lit the second candle calling on my ancestors. I lit the third candle calling on The Gods. I then proceeded to light 7 more candles. I sat reaching out my arms and connecting with the Spirit world. I sat just feeling the movements of energy around me, reaching out and connecting. Just sitting in silence and the flickering light of candles as the energy continues to move around me. I then ground on a large pink quartz and begin to center. I then hold onto my cauldron and begin naming all that I have to be thankful for, all the blessings of the last year. I give thanks. I then begin to set my intents for the coming year and they can be broken down into Spiritual, Relationship, Family, Career. I then recited my oath with my hand resting on a bear. I stated my oath to my guides, ancestors and Gods to continue my study and continue my dedication to my path. This was followed by a self blessing. I then pulled 3 cards Princess of Pentacles, Prince of Pentacles, 8 of Swords. It seems I will move forward, but then become stuck. 8 of Swords is a reminder that we have the key to the chains that bind us. The ritual was closed thanking all who joined me.
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15 December 2005 @ 03:32 pm
My main hearth culture is the Celts with Irish leanings with the Norse coming in second. I have done some reading and so far it seems Yule was not a holiday for the Celts and may have become a move important day after invasions and influence by the Saxons and then the Romans. Yule did seem like an important holiday to the Norse people. I did read oaths were made on Yule by placing a hand on a bear. I will incorporate this into my ritual. I have many bear symbols, but I will use the carved wooden bear I received as a gift last Yule.

Also, I will focus my research for Yule on the Norse Tradition since the Celts did not have a Yule tradition on their own.
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13 December 2005 @ 03:05 pm
With my class and the craziness of my schedule I seemed to lose all the structure to my practice. It was reduced to simple prayers of gratitude throughout the day. One Yule is the last day of my hypnotherapy classes and the end of the week brings 10 days off. This is when I plan to put some of the structures back in place.

I will begin with my Oath on 12/20, since I will not be home until after 10PM on Yule. It will be a simple ceremony in darkness. I will start with a journey. I am separate the journey and oath with a prayer. Following my oath I will light three candles: one for the nature spirits and guides, one for my ancestors, one for the Gods/Goddess. This will be followed by song and sweets. I will also put a portion outside for local critters.

During my week off I will pick up my dedicant manual and begin week 3 exploring Yule.
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17 November 2005 @ 11:53 am
I am really enjoying the discussion on the topic of gatekeepers on the dedicant list serv. I am learning so much from it. I am new to ADF ritual style and I am still getting to know the Celtic deities, I know the Norse deities a much better through my rune study. The idea of a gatekeeper is new to me, but hearing the purpose of the role makes perfect sense.

Through my journey work I always contact my guides before moving between the worlds. I know many that meet their guides once they cross over, but I have always felt my guides are better equipped at moving between the worlds so I will go with them.

So much to learn, but I love the journey.
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16 November 2005 @ 10:25 pm
My books arrived today. I plan to start History of Pagan Europe. I need something to breakup all the hypnosis reading. hehe
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13 November 2005 @ 07:46 pm

I am skipping ahead a bit since the next holy day is still more then a month away. So I have jumped to week 5: Nature Awareness 1. This really hit me. I am a member of at least 2 national environmental action groups and also on at least 2 other environmental action lists. I have kept tabs on the arctic drilling situation and fought to save the artic, but when it comes to locally I am not as present.

I was born and raised in Philadelphia. I now live west of the city in West Chest. I have lived here for a year and a half. It was once farm lands. You can still find a few corn fields and horse stables, but over development is threatening the area. More and more developments are being built and strip malls/shopping centers are added regularly. It is something that frustrates me to no end. The roads can't take it and it is taxing our resources.

I actually live in a development. It irritates me that chemicals are used on the grass and signs are posted at different times to warn us to keep our kids and pets off the grass. How sad is that? Is the grass only okay to look at? Then I realize that I only look out my window to view the changing seasons and the creatures that peak out of the very thin wooded area. I have seen deer, groundhogs, bunnies, a fox, and let us not forget the birds. Woodpeckers, bluejays, robins, cardinals, and goldfinches have also been seen. But mostly they are seen through the window. It seems I should begin by connecting to the earth in my own backyard.

I don't know where the water comes from or what the soil is like. I have begun to look into the water, but I can't find a clear answer. It seems with the fast growing population our water in this county comes from a few places or I am not finding accurate information. This is going to take more work and research.

It is time that the environment becomes less abstract and more real. It is not something I need to travel to. I can find it right out my back door. And even though it is important to fit for the arctic and areas around the water, I also need to be aware of the environmental impact in my own backyard and find my voice here. I am waking up, but is is obvious I am not yet fully away. I buy bottled water and packaged food, but I am also moving towards natural reusable menstrual products.

This is going to be good for me.

I am stall here for a week or two since I have class this coming weekend.

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10 November 2005 @ 09:53 pm
I have cleaned up my home shrine and right now I am content with it. You can see pictures of it here.
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09 November 2005 @ 10:48 pm

I began work on the home shrine today. It is a work in progress since I am really not up to that part yet, but felt moved to change my main altar. So far I have the symbols of well and tree. The shrine is on a small square side table perfect for kneeling in front of during devotions. It sits in the room dedicated to my spiritual work and healing practice. The far back center sits a picture of Brigid. In the center is a wooden labyrinth (in the future three votive candles will sit on it, white, red & black). To the left slightly back from the labyrinth is a large rose quartz with small stones, acorns, pine cones & bark around it (I plan to clean it up a bit and perhaps just keep the rose quartz). To the right of the labyrinth slightly back is a large Abalone Shell with iridescent beads and shells inside, there are also a couple shells outside of the large shell. A picture of Sheila Na Gig is in the front center with pictures of Rhianna & Cerridwen to the left and Blodeuwedd & Maeve to the right. All the Goddess images are from Goddess Oracle.

When I finished this arrangement I did like the energy with it, but I do feel it should be cleaned up more. Once I clean it up a tad I will post a picture. I plan to minimize the Goddess images as I connect with the Gods & Goddesses of the Celts. I will purchase the statue of Danu from Sacred Source in the future since she speaks to me. I may also keep Blodeuwedd since she did give me my name. As I travel this path I am sure I will make other changes, perhaps changing my symbols of well and tree.

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